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Today marks the auspicious start of my thirty-eighth year. If I sound self-assured and confident, it’s because I am. I have no resolutions, no bucket list, no promises to fulfill, but one: live it.

My worst fears were recognized as 2011 raced in, and as I struggled to make rhyme or reason of it all, my greatest mistake was recognized: I had stopped living and began the mundane practice of existing.

As my 37th year passes out with the stale summer wind, and the promise of a new year’s revolution lies before me, I acknowledge where I went astray and mark that place in my journey as one I never intend to revisit. It was a place of futility and great angst, one of pain and shame and sadness, one of misgivings and mis-forgivings, one of self-deprecation and self-flagellation, versus self-preservation. I assume we’ve all been there before- like the undertaking of laboring in love or childbirth, it is the final chapter in our old lives which inevitably shapes the next story, a fresh page in herstory.

My fresh page begins here, just 11 days past my 3rd blogoversary, with a dissolved marriage just behind me, a debilitating emotional illness under aggressive treatment, a new love, a fresh promise and a birthday cake baked by my sweet Yael Rose. Life is indeed good. And, getting settled back into my writing chair is even better. I’ve missed you all, thanks for your continued readership and all of the messages of love and support during some of the more trying pages of my last chapter.

Peace, love and joy
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  1. >Dear Tameka, so good to have you back:):) Happy Birthday – as we age, learn and grow, the years just keep getting better and better!

  2. kerin rose says:

    >glorious birthday wishes to you Tameka!….here's to another 365 days around the sun!

  3. nicaeli says:

    >glad your back and Happy, Happy Birthday!

  4. Barbara says:

    >Happy, Happy Birthday… again 🙂

  5. fly tie says:

    >ahhhh yes…i'm several days late, but happy belated bday! may this new year bring you much joy and fulfillment.

    something tells me it's about to get better and better! 😀

  6. >Happy Birthday and it's good to have you back.

  7. Jewelry Rockstar says:

    >Happy Birthday! Here's to living! Cheers!

  8. mairedodd says:

    >the happiest of birthdays – may all of the good wishes that come your way be put to full use as you accept and embrace them as you haven't before…

  9. shibori girl says:

    >Dear Tameka,

    Hooray to turning a page. I'm sorry you had such a tough year, but it sounds like you are handling it beautifully.

    Happy belated birthday, and be well…

    Kate

  10. >Happy Birthday, and I wish you a bright, new, prosperous, and happy year ahead 🙂

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